Conference Weekend

Sorry I have not written much alot is on my mind and just hard to decide what to say on here.

So anyways I feel like writing about this weekend though so I am going to!

Saturday Jeremy made plans to go play paint ball with a friend here one last time before we move. They use to always do this before the deployment and they go the first Saturday of each month because it is free for soldiers. But anyways he was out of the house and I was home alone with no car ....so what would I do!

Lucky for a friend on facebook she reminded me that this weekend was General Conference weekend. So, I decide that I would watch the Saturday morning session and make some Gumbo for when my hubby comes home. Well, here is where I need help:

I guess I have adult ADD or something. I can't sit and watch tv, a movie, and for sure conference in my own home. Even when it is a movie I end up on facebook, cleaning my living room, organizing my DVDs, folding clothes, or something. I can't just sit and pay attention to ANYTHING. I feel like I am wasting my time when I look around there is something that needs to be done. Then if I am doing one of these things I stop focusing on whatever I should be doing. And it harder to do when it is something on the computer too. It drives my husband nuts and I don't know what to do.

So anyways Saturday I started the morning session but it got to me. So I put the computer on the table and started to make the gumbo and fully trying my hardest to listen and understand. I did get some good things out but I feel like I did not get has much out that I should have. I do plan on reading it again because that is how I REAlly understand the message is seeing it written. So anyways we missed the Saturday evening session due to just got busy doing something around the house and lots time. So that night after J went to bed and I could not sleep I got up and ended up watching half of the afternoon session. I feel like I got more out of that then. I turned all the lights out (so I can't see what I should be doing..lol) and sat here on the couch with my computer watching it. I could stop it, rewind it, and really try to understand it. I felt like that was better for me then trying to watch it live.

Well, later that night I just lets say had a bad night. I ended up being up all night crying and letting the depression and stress that is going on get to me. I don't want to go on about that here but my depression was really hitting me hard. So Jeremy that has long how to deal with me when this happen knew I need to get out of the house. I have not left it much due to J having the car and is running around trying to get everything done for PCS. So we hated to miss conference today but knowing I will be able to still watch it and read it on my own time where I can really understand it and knew I would not focus unless I dealt with the depression.

So today we got up and went to Jekyll Island and walked the beach. Nothing like being outside and God's creation to make you feel so much better. It was so what I needed a car ride alone and giving us time to talk and we spent a few hours just walking along the water's edge and pondering our lives and our journeys. Part of me feel bads about missing conference but I fell better now and can't wait to sit down and watch them now. I am thinking about waiting until they are written and then print them off so I can follow alone maybe that would help me pay attention better.

So, anyways here is my question for yall.. October is the next General Conference and I want to be able to sit down and watch it live in my own home. Do any one else have the trouble I have and if so what do you do? Just anyone have any suggestions? It is just hard to sit in my house and watch it. When we lived in Texas we went to my Dad's and that was no problem cause others there but it is just hard sitting in my house..... Any suggestions???

Thanks!