Texas

YAY! Only 3 more days, well actually 2 now till I am heading to the beautiful state of Texas. Yes, I miss Texas but what I miss more is the food! Texas has the BEST food. I will probably eat so much and gain so much weight but trust me it is so worth it, epically when you never know when you will have it again. I will do anything for some Tex-Mex (Mexican in Texas but to the rest of the world it is Tex-Mex). I been dieing for some of Casa Ole Salsa, Chile Con queso, and cheese enchiladas. Also I will love to have my hands on some fried Catfish....yes CATFISH! Then you can't forget the joys of living next to Louisiana and the joys of CAJUN foods. Yummy; Baudoin (smoked or balls), some yummy Jamayla, gumbo,.... okay I am making myself hungry. Then I can't forget my dad's yummy streak fingers or Frito Pie. So yeah there is my list of Texas food and all my friends in Georgia you wonder why I hate the food around here.

So another exciting reason to come home now is Redbud. I get to go to Redbud this year. I have to admit I have not been to a Redbud festival since 2005 and that is just a WOW for me. Okay for yeah that are wondering what is Redbud festival. In little ole Buna, TX on the second Saturday in March everyone comes out of the wood works and all people that have every live in Buna all come home for a Redbud festival. Why it does sounds like any other towns festival, the Redbud festival it nice to see old friends and people of the community. It starts off with a parade. The parade for me growing up was also fun, and actually I was 19 the first time I actually got to stand on the side of the street and Enjoy the parade. Yes at a young age my parents put me in pageants so I rode a car or float. Then at the age of 4 I started twirling and then march with the twirlers from Patsy's school. Then in Junior High I started Band and then marched with the Band. Then it was high school Band! Then my last year as a Senior I march with the Buna High School band then had my twirling uniform under the band uniform and had a car at the end of the route....drive back to the beginning and march again with the twirling studio I was in. So yeah I loved being in the parade, but now it is nice just to stand and cheer. Then the rest of the day at the school they have booths that see some really cool stuff anything from homemade candles, soaps, wood crafts and stuff. Then the food.... yummy food! My favorite has a kid was always a sausage on a stick and funnel cake. Oh, and then if it is a hot year getting snow cones. Yes the weather is always funny at Redbud festivals. One year it would be so hot you be in shorts and the next year you are in sweaters and coats. So we never knew how it would be. There is also a little traveling carnival with the basic rides, big hit when kids or high school but don't really care now. Also they have little things that go on too which I have never been big fans of like a Miss Buna Pageant, Rodeo, and other things. So I am excited to go back and just wished Jeremy to go and enjoy it with me but oh well.

So now I am excitied I guess I better get up and actually get things ready to go....lol.... I have not even started packing or anything. So I better get started soon. I leave Wednesday! Monday I got to take the care to get oil change and everything checked out. I also have to get some luggage too at walmart. I also need to go to the hosiptal and get some medicines refill so I guess I run all my errands Monday and Tuesday I finalized the packing and then drop off my Dog at Corina's and then get some good sleep. So then I will be on my way!

So YAY! I am heading to Texas!

I would Die for That

Okay I am might say some things in this blog that might hurt people's feelings if you are pregnant or has a baby. I never want to hurt anyone but I have to say what is on my chest. Please read it and this is not to hurt anyone feelings but if you think I am rude and being mean then feel free to stop reading it cause you have been warned!!!!!!

Okay here is the dear, while I have a LOVE for Facebooking and love to be on facebook 24/7 (I even bought a new phone so I can always get on no matter where I am at) lately I have HATED it! I don't know how to say this but there has been so much pregnancy talks on facebook, it seems like EVERYONE is pregnant. If you are one of these people then I really mean this congratulations and yes I am happy for you. Children are great and wonderful and creating life is a wonderful blessing. But while everyone is celebrating those that are pregnant, I have also seen some sad pregnancy news lately. I still have to sit back and think about the handful (and you know who you are) that are unable to make that post, see the 2 pink lines, and have taken more medicines and keep wishing, hoping and praying that our day will come.

Years ago after me and Jeremy got married I thought I was alone in the world. I never knew that their was others that have trouble getting pregnant. Everywhere I looked people got pregnant so easy, I never meet anyone that had trouble. I hated getting ask all the time those famous questions of "when are you going to have kids?" or "Don't you want children?" I ignored everything and stayed busy and kept coming up with excuses and reasons why is was not the time for us. Now 7 years later I can't ignored it anymore.....I WANT ANSWERS!!!!! AND I WANT THEM NOW!!!!!

But though facebook reconnecting with all high school friends and some people that I have meet around Fort Stewart I have found out that I am not alone in this world. While I would never want any other couple to go though what I go though it is nice to know you are not alone which some times I feel that way. And even if I am down I hope I can help others and lift their spirits. I try not to think about me and my problems and try to be helpful to others and be happy for others, but sorry if one day I don't seem to excited or feel bad for you that you have morning sickness. (Okay sorry I guess that was mean to say) But I would "die" for that!

So anyways, I don't know where I am going with this post. I guess I dont know what to say I cried my eyes out writing that much. Oh, I know my next point was going to be.

I have to say I am excited about going to Texas but yet at the same time getting anxiety about it. Yes, I want to go see my family and friends and my old ward but the same time I hate it. I know I will get ask and I always do by someone in the family, at church or around town that just has know why I don't have any kids and when I plan on having some. Yes I want to scream just thinking about it so If you are reading this and might see me DON"T ASK! I never figure out why people actually ask these questions anyways. Are they really THAT nosy that they gotta know how you plan on living your life. Okay there I go again being mean sorry!

Anyways, oh another note. I love children and just because I don't have children don't mean I don't want to be around them. I feel like some times people think just because I don't have children and they do that I don't want to be their friend or anything. Being in Nursery at church has been one of the best things that has help me since I been at Fort Stewart. Cause I just love being around them and I love doing children activities. So this is a shout out to my friends here if you every just want another adult around or when you go to the park or whatever just let me know I will meet up with you. I love going to the parks and put put golf, and all kinds of kids friendly stuff but when you are alone you feel out of place at those places. So anyways just because I don't have kids don't mean I don't want to be around them. I used to have a friend when we lived in Utah that I would call whenever I got sad or wanted to do something child like. I would call and tell her I am coming to get the kids and would take them for a hour or so. Some times it was stuff like just to go get ice cream cones at McDonalds, or to go run around the park on a pretty day, or this is the one killing me now a G rate (children's show) (I love Disney cartoons) and I just need a child so I don''t look weird going to the movie. But please don't think I am a werido.... I am just some one that loves children and since I don't have my own right now I want to give to every other child I see around!

Okay so I will shut up now.... Sorry for goign on and on and on. I just love to type and some times when things are brothering me I like to write them out. So thanks for reading this and I feel 20 x better now just writing this off my chest. I guess that is the point of this!

Oh, and if you are wondering where I got the title for this post from check out this video. It made me cry and started the thinking of all this!

Snowing in Fort Stewart, GA

Wow it snowed today that is hard to believe that. It is like Southeast Texas here never snows but once in a blue moon. So, yeah we had a good 2 inches of snow here tonight. You know you are in the south when it snows everyone runs out of their house and stands in the street to admire the snow. I guess I would be like that if it was not for living in Utah for almost 2 years. But I did go out in the street and enjoy the snow too. So now it has stopped snowing and it is just freezing. Jeremy was sad that he had to miss it! But oh well! Anyways, we have past the 60 day mark and is doing good in that area! So here is the pictures from the snowy night in Fort Stewart, GA.

Snowing is Falling all Around

On the housetop on the ground

Snow is falling all around
On my head, hands and toes
(Me in the snow)

My car and carport!

The BIG 5-0

Okay, no it is not anyone's birthday today. But I did realized today is that today we hit day 50 in this deployment. Yeah, nothing really to celebrate I mean when you talk about a year 50 days seem like no time but it is a good start, I am proud I have made it this far without any major breakdowns. I have learned alot about myself in this 50 days and I think Jeremy has too. I am proud of making it this far, they say the first month is the hardest cause you got to get used to doing things alone but now I am starting to get into routines so it is getting so much easily. I am also finding some joys in Jeremy being gone. I have found that I love making him surprises and crafty things and putting together care packages. So I keep myself from missing him by thinking of new things I can make and send him. Yes, I do still miss him but this is just easily for me to deal with. Anyways, I still got a lot of goals that I want to do while Jeremy is gone and have not made much (if any) of the goals even started. I really need to start working on losing weight and walking. Anyone every wants to go for a walk just let me know I will go too. I just bought Dancing With the Stars video because I love dancing from when I was in high school and would love to find a place around here to go take dance classes with others. But until I figure that out I can do it in my house for now. Also I got the Biggest Loser Last chance workout so we will see how that goes. Well, everything is going good and I am glad that we have pasted the 50th day marked. YAY ME! (Sorry watching Suite Life on Deck)