There is Sunshine in My Soul Today

I can't believe that this weekend is aready over. It was such a nice and wonderful weekend. Saturday was a beautiful day. Jeremy went to go play paintball with some of his buddies. So I stayed home with my door open. I hate not having window I can open and enjoy the fresh air. So I just open my door and have my screen door. I can't wait to move from here. Anyways, I watched Conference Saturday morning and Saturday evening on the internet. In between I got my house cleaned just about. Then for the afternoon conference i was so hungry cause I did not stop to eat yet.So I just order Pizza and then set at the table with the computer and enjoy eating and conference. It is very nice to have all the different ways to enjoy conference. This was my first time to try it. I don't have the BYU channel and I really did not want to have to get dress to go to the church. So I decide to see how bad it could be watching it online. And to my suprise I loved it. It was nice because a) I did not have to get dress b) I could eat and drink c) I loved that I could pause it if I wanted to right something down or go to the bathroom. The last reason is very nice feature about watching it online. I always started watching them live but if I had to get up to go the bathroom then I would pause it and I never caught up. Anyways, then Sunday me and Jeremy watched both conferences again online. Before and between we finished cleaning the house together and caught watching our clothes up. So yeah our house is nice and clean. Now that my house is clean I can have vistors...lol!
I just feel at alot less stress now with a clean house. Well, I have to say that my favorite talk was the first one: Robert D. Hales about Provident Living.

On other notes there is this show that came on Discovery Health and last night on TLC called "I did not know I was pregnant." It is scary to see what has happen to these people. I keep watching going man, that will be me. It is about people that had no clue they were pregnant until they went into labor. One deliever at a camp bathroom, others at work and at home. i know you ask who would not realize they were pregnant, but they had no signs or they did not realized the signs. Most of them, like me never thought they could get pregnant and have normal cycles. So missing a couple months of cycles did not matter. It makes me keep hope up and also want to go to the gym. One lady tried for 15 years and was unable but then she went on a crash diet and lost 30 pounds. That weight loss is what the Doctor that talks on the show, said that is what trigger her body to ovaluted. I though, hum, I wonder if that would work for me... Now, I just got to go to the gym! I dont like going by myself so I will have to see.
Anyways that is all I have to say for now... LATER!!!

Just the Two of Us—For Now

Okay so I have not written on here in awhile. I guess I just don't know what to say anymore. The past month has been a long month and the whole time I just wanted to crawl in bed and never get out. I been struggling with alot of stuff in my life right now, and I guess I do what my husband's Sgt says. He is always on me to (his words) "suck it up and drive on" because he says I dwell on it. I never thought about it but I guess I do. Some times it is just best to cry then try to hide it. I guess along with being depressed about not being able to have children, I have begin to get homesick. I miss Buna! (thought I would never say that, I just enjoy Buna Ward). I just cry with everything lately. I cried yesterday watching Oprah,who I don't really like. I only watched it because Micheal J. Fox was on it and I loved him in the 80s on Family Ties. I watched it because it was about him struggling for 18 years with Parkinson's Disease which is what my father-in-law has. It was a really good show and I just set on the couch weeping. Anyways!
Well, here I am in the middle of the night, 1:00 am in the morning and unable to sleep, due to my mind is racing with so much thoughts. Well, has I was blog spying I ran across a friend from Hinesville and on her blog she had all this excitement about General Conference coming up. I thought about I wished I had that came kind of excitement. I was thinking I can watched it online that way I don't have to get out and see anyone. I know wrong way of thinking!!! Anyways, from here page I ended up going to LDS.org and found myself looking for answers. While there I decide to read past issues of Ensign. Since I don't get them anymore, due to it expire during moving and just never have renew the subscription. I was going to do it then but my card was in the car and it is dark, and raining. Well anyways the point of this is I ran across this article searching. "Just the Two of Us - For Now" By Ardeth G. Kapp
Young Women General President
www.lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=2354fccf2b7db010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD&locale=0&sourceId=64bc27cd3f37b010VgnVCM1000004d82620a____&hideNav=1 This arictle is really good and made me feel even better. It bought out some really good points for childless couples. I know it is kinda old but the message is still the same. I don't know why I am writing all this but I guess I just wanted to write.

Anyways, on other news, Jeremy knee is getting better he will not be needing surgery. It still hurts but it looks like he will have to do his PT test next week. So he has began working so hopefully he will be able to past it. So, tonight in between rain storms we took Zowie, our dog, for a walk/run. It was fun! I think we decide that we want to adopted from the state, but we just have some issues standing in the way. One being that as soon has he passes his PT test he should be up for resigning. We have mix feelings about if we want to PCS (permanent change of station or move). We love it here and are settled and he knows he will deployed around January of 2010. Which he wants to because those guys are his friends now. But we also have the fight if we want to move because we do want to see more of the country instead of just Georgia. So who knows what we will do. We just have to wait and see what they will offer us, I guess. I just don't want to start with the adoption process here and then in the next year we move I would feel like I was wasting my time.